When I started this blog ages ago, I promised to be honest and sincere about life with M.S. – all of it. I threw my heart and soul into my writing – not only to help others, but also as a method of therapy as I adjusted to this new life.
Today, as I sit in front of my laptop, just three months shy of my two year anniversary of my official diagnosis, re-reading stories and comments (as suggested by my 17-year-old stepdaughter), I’ve realized just how immersed I’ve become in a life with M.S. I haven’t written much lately, not only because I’ve been busy, but because I’m going through some major life changes that are a little too private to write about on the blog. The changes may be tied to this immersion into a life with M.S. or might not. Now it’s time to immerse myself into finding the answer to that question and a few others.
A long time ago, right when I was first diagnosed, I “took a day off from MS” to remember everything else in the world. I think it’s time to do that again, but perhaps for an extended hiatus. While the Sun isn’t shining brightly, it’s still there, but I’m wondering if I let M.S. take so much control that some of the spark has faded; perhaps always so fearful of what tomorrow might hold that I shyed away from living today just in case. Maybe it was all the life stressors that are written about throughout these virtual pages. Maybe it’s a combination of both.
Regardless, I’m entering a time of re-evaluation and introspection that will likely preclude me from sharing my new stories until such a time that I can honestly and openly share with all our loyal readers. To do anything less would be a complete farce and a dishonor to this special place that has been shared with people from throughout the world.
In the meantime, Sunshine and Moonlight remains here, because every day hundreds of new people visit the site to learn about life with MS, especially the newly diagnosed. If you’re one of those new people and have reached this somber-toned article, just realize it’s part of a 21-month journey that continues. You’ll find lots of laughter and heartwarming tales inside and hopefully a little help and guidance along the way.
For those loyal friends and supporters, when you look up to the Sun, hold a good thought for me as I try to find a new path and direction that hopefully leads me back to a place that many once loved and wanted to be a part of.
Be well all my friends and I shall return when I can,
Sunshine
You are my Sunshine. You will circle round the darkness and shine again. I know you will . Because shining is not just what you do–it’s who you are. I am absolutely certain that we will all be here when you return.
Home safe, Kim.
Oh Kimberly,
You get sick; I make a great friend.
I was wondering if you would consider a new disease to go with this one, just so we could still have fun?
You have my email, and my heart. Use both as needed any time or place. Some say that; I MEAN that!
In the last week of Christ’s life, he was extravagantly anointed by a woman who used the equivalent of a year’s wages of highly prized oil to anoint the soon to die body of Christ.
She mixed the oils with her tears, at all Christ had done for her.
Judas (money bean counter of his day) was furious and lashed out: “That could have been sold and the money used for the poor”. (He woulda used it for Judas).
Christ lashed right back and said “Leave her alone!
(He always liked the gals, eh?).
The poor you will always have with you;
You will not have me with you.
What she has done is a good thing and it will be remembered wherever the Gospel is told. She DONE what she could!”
This day, the Lord does not lash out, but tenderly looks from heaven at His daughter, Kimberly Fabrizio, turns to the Father, and says :
“Dad, …. See that Kimberly Fabrizio?
She DONE what she could!”
I love you Kim. <3
Danny Lucas
I don’t have MS, but I have a sister who does. Your blog has raised my awareness, and I hope you return someday soon.
I will be waiting for your return.
If you get lost along the way turn towards the light…there you will find the ones who love you.
Kim,
Please take care of yourself, I hope to see you back here someday. In the meantime I will keep you in my prayers.
Good luck Sunshine. We’ll be here when you come back.
Sis, you know where to find me if you need me. Keep your chins up. Lori
Take care of yourself. Your blog has been more important than you know. Prayers are with you and I anxiously wait your return.
I will keep many good thoughts for you. l will look forward to your return. Take care!!!
Just keep swimming, just keep swimming……
We all love you, Dory!!!
I have not seen red cardinals all year.
I saw one fly to a nearby arbivitae, swing in at the top, sit like a Christmas tree ornament, and stand firm.
He was so regal.
So I thought of you……..and said a prayer of Thanksgiving, for all the bounty you provide to so many.
Two Christmas’ ago, you spent Christmas Eve in concern and worry as you began to write in your first month.
Last Christmas Eve, I enjoyed the company of Kerrie and her tribute to Oboe, as I prepared for church, and viewed the laptop, off and on for both, and communed with an Earthly family, and a heavenly family at once, on the same Eve.
I hope we update and do so again on Christmas Eve of 2009.