Somewhere around November 18th or 19th of 2007, I started feeling what I thought were Carpal Tunnel symptoms in my right hand. The symptoms included: tingling of my fingers, numbness, and I was having trouble typing. I went out and bought wrist guards, and things designed to help CT patients. The symptoms continued for about two weeks and I promised I’d visit the doctor after Thanksgiving. On the day after Thanksgiving, I woke up with blurry vision. I wear glasses, so I thought maybe I was in need of a new prescription. I could see, just not clearly. By Sunday, I started to notice that I was tripping over my words (and my feet); I felt like I couldn’t think of what to say when trying to talk, and the vision was worsening. (In retrospect, we think I may have been experiencing some other more silent symptoms for more than a decade without knowing what was going on. Falling down outside of a friend’s house for no-reason, vertigo, having difficulty seeing — getting dizzy — in rooms with bright, fluorescent light, swearing that I bought Diet Snapple and getting home and realizing I bought something totally different and not understanding how the wrong drink jumped into my cart at Wal-Mart. Those who know me know that those might have just been normal-Kim silly things, but looking back now, I guess they weren’t). We believe I had M.S., undiagnosed, for many, many years.
On the Monday after Thanksgiving, 2007, I hopped in my car, planning to go to work, and planning to make that doctor’s appointment to check my hand, and yet another with the eye doctor to check my prescription. By the time I hit the highway, I couldn’t see much of anything. If both eyes were open, things were double. The brake lights on the cars in front of me were showing four lights, not two lights. If I closed my right eye, I could see enough to drive. And, I made it to work. I thought I was having a stroke.
After a visit to my doctor’s office, I was promptly shipped down to the ER. After a few hours of CAT scans, EKG’s, EEG’s, X-Rays, enough blood work for a small family, they ruled out any serious brain tumors or strokes. But something was still seriously wrong. And, so began my three day visit at “Hotel Hamot” here in Erie.
They ruled out diabetes, carotid artery blockages, heart problems, pituitary tumors, and a whole bunch of other scarily-named diseases and infections. On November 28, 2007, day three, I received my MRI results and it was determined that I have M.S. More specifically, I have RR-MS (there are four types of MS).
My type is called relapsing-remitting MS. People with this type of MS experience clearly defined flare-ups (also called relapses, attacks, or exacerbations). These are episodes of acute worsening of neurological function. They are followed by partial or complete recovery periods (remissions) free of disease progression. It’s the most common form of MS at time of initial diagnosis. Approximately 85% of people with MS have RR-MS.
So, what the heck is MS? MS is thought to be an autoimmune disease that affects the central nervous system (CNS). The CNS consists of the brain, spinal cord, and the optic nerves. Surrounding and protecting the nerve fibers of the CNS is a fatty tissue called myelin, which helps nerve fibers conduct electrical impulses.In MS, myelin is lost in multiple areas, leaving scar tissue called sclerosis. These damaged areas are also known as lesions. Sometimes the nerve fiber itself is damaged or broken. Just like with “Sunshine” and “Moonlight”, the word “lesions” are pretty scary. So, we’ve taken to calling my lesions, “spots” on my brain, or when they are lit up during a relapse - “sparkles”. I apparently have thirteen to sixteen lesions on my brain, and one on my spinal cord — right at the base of the brain on the right side of my neck area.
Myelin not only protects nerve fibers, but makes their job possible. When myelin or the nerve fiber is destroyed or damaged, the ability of the nerves to conduct electrical impulses to and from the brain is disrupted, and this produces the various symptoms of MS.
I’ve built this blog to provide a positive forum for reflection, sharing and community. Remember, no two patients are the same. But, we’re all in this together. Let the sun shine brightly!
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BIO:
Kimberly A. Fabrizio is the executive assistant to the President of Edinboro University of Pennsylvania. In her role, Fabrizio has liaison duties to virtually every division of the University and serves on the President’s Cabinet. Previously, Kim served as Education Director for WQLN Public Broadcasting of Northwest Pennsylvania (PBS/NPR); Newspaper in Education Coordinator for the Erie Times-News; and Manager of Career Advising for Triangle Tech. Kim holds a Master of Science degree in Counseling Psychology from Gannon University and a Bachelor of Arts degree in Speech and Communication Studies from Edinboro University of Pennsylvania. She is currently pursuing her doctoral degree with the Fielding Graduate University, focusing on Educational Leadership and Change, with a specialization in media studies. Additionally, Kim is a former Advisory Board Member and Research Fellow of the Society for New Communications Research, and a graduate of the Grantsmanship Training Center, Los Angeles, California. She also served as a high school writing coach for WriteAtHome, Inc. She has served as an adjunct lecturer at Gannon University’s Dahlkemper School of Business where she taught undergraduate courses in Marketing and Organizational Behavior. She also trains local organizations in the strategic planning and team-building processes.
Kim has served on a variety of Boards and community committees including: the Board of Directors for Perseus House and the Perseus House Charter School, Leadership Center and the Bayfront Center for Maritime Studies Charter Schools and CelebrateErie/CelebrateKids 2002-2005. She is also a former member of the National Association for the Education of Young Children (NAEYC), is affiliated with the nationally recognized Coalition Pathways organization, is a Task Force Member of Erie’s Promise, a member of the National Association of Female Executives, and a former board member of the Association of Fundraising Professionals. Kim is proud to volunteer as a Citizen’s Review Committee Member for the United Way. She is a former Advisor to the White House Office on National Drug Control Policy’s (ONDCP) “National Youth Anti-Drug Media Campaign.” Additionally, she is a campaign volunteer for the American Cancer Society’s Relay for Life and an advisory board member for the National Multiple Sclerosis Society. Kim was also honored as an inaugural winner of the Young Erie Professionals’ “Generation-E Leadership Award” for helping to make Erie, Pennsylvania a better place to live, work and play.
Kim resides in Pennsylvania.

I should have known better than to check out this blog at work. I am at the federal courthouse, reading about my baby sister and crying like a fool. Government employees are not expected to sit at their desk and blubber !!!!
Sis, I love you and I need to spend some time with you; hurry up and get better so that I can see you, hug you and make sure you are still around …. Lori
Ditto, except I’m at home. Take care, you are always in my thoughts!
glitter and sparkesl to you, Lorelei
Another big sister weighing in here. You are in my prayers Sunshine. I am so proud of you! There isn’t anything life can throw at you that can dim your sparkle.
This is absolutely an awesome blog. Kim, you are so in my prayers ! Us redheads have a special bond, after all – REDS R BEST! I’m all for your sunshine sparkles, and glitter! Angels watching over YOU.
Kim,
We have a lot in common. I visited your blog after seeing your recent post on dailystrength.com. I am taking a simialr route with my MS since dx in September 07. I’m writing a book that has started as a blog. I’ve enjoyed what I’ve read on your blog so far. I appreciate your determination to focus on the positive. I’m not always as successful as you but I try. Maybe you’d enjoy mine: http://lazyjulie.blogspot.com.
Julie
Julie, thanks for writing! I’m going to add your blog to my blogroll!!
Kim,
I found your website through MSWorld. I love the positive attitude you display in all your writing. I haven’t had a chance to read everything here yet, but will over the next few days. I am a fellow MSer and experiencing optic neuritis, so reading your blog isn’t easy right now. I look forward to all of your future posts and I will hopefully be able to share my story with you.
Many thanks and blessings – Lois
Kim,
I have thought long and hard about what inspiring words I could send you. To be honest, it is very hard. You are the girl I knew from down the block. The friend I would ride bikes with and play kick the cans. You were voted most likely to succeed in grade school – and you have!
You have approached the diagnosis of MS like you have approached everything in your life….with tenacity. I have never known you to back down from a challenge – you kick butt and take names….with a smile on your face of course. I am so very proud to call myself your friend and am continually amazed by you. I agree with Judy from Texas – through this diagnosis I truly believe that you will be able to help many people.
Jules, Kick the cans!!! Oh, what great memories those were. And, my friend, you have been there by my side every step of the way. I, too, am proud that you are my friend (and you know I don’t use that word lightly). Love you!
For Lois — thanks for your comment and I feel for you. My optic muscle was damaged in the attack that landed me in the hospital. I’m fortunate, though, that the nerve itself hasn’t been damaged as of yet. I’m just now back to driving my car and actually picked up a new set of glasses today. I think I took “seeing” for granted (believe it or not). Try an eye patch — just for a couple hours now and then — if your vision issue is mainly with one eye. It helped me immensely early on.
Hi Kim,
I’ve been where you are now just two years ago. The first year after MS diagnosis is a trying time. Hang in there. You’re positive approach will be an inspiration to many readers who stumble across your new blog.
I started a blog this past summer, not specifically about MS, but unscientifically observatives surrounding healthcare issues. I will gladly add a link to your blog in my MS resources section.
Regarding prescription assistance (on one of your other posts), I recommend starting any search with ‘Needy Meds’ which has the most thorough listing of sources and requirements available. I’ve been through the difficult process many times. If you have any reader who needs help or encouragement in that area, feel free to refer them to me. I’m always glad to help.
Lisa Emrich
http://brassandivory.blogspot.com
Hi Kim,
I’ve decided to start a Blog Carnival specifically for those with MS or those who discuss MS. You are invited to participate. Information is available at http://brassandivory.blogspot.com/2007/12/announcing-new-carnival-of-ms-bloggers.html
thanks,
Lisa
BTW, thanks for adding me to your blogroll
Kim,
My sister an brother-in-law live in Erie, and are a graduates of Edinboro.
Small world, eh?
Joan
Hi Joan, it IS a small world!! Send me an email and let me know their names. I may even know them. Thanks for your story under O Sole Mio Sundays. I’m going to review the link and start to put something together! I have stories for the next couple of weeks, but yours will come soon!
Hope you’re having a Sunshine Day!
Kim
Hi Kim, I sent my story you requested, did you get it?
SammyJo
Hi Sammy Jo,
Sorry, I didn’t get your story. Did you email it to me? Just click on my name here on my posting and my email will be there for you — or just click on “Email Kim” in my blogroll.
Hi, Kim,
Thank you for your post on the Montel Williams thread on MS World. I think you are and will contribute to the research, advocation and attention that this disease or causes of it deserve.
Anne, thanks so much for this vote of confidence and for your support!! Please visit here often!
Kim,
I was diagnosed with RRMS in July of 2006 but then in May of 2007 my Neuro told me that I have had MS for a while and said that every visit to him that none of the medications were working so he came clean and told me what I actually had was Primary Progressive MS. My heart sank because I have a wife that was doing everything for me and I knew then that I wouldn’t be able to do much to help her around the house. I read your story above and it was almost exactly the same thing that happened to me so I know exactly what you went through! God Bless you and thanks for putting it in writing so I can read it again and again when people ask me what symptoms I had before I was diagnosed. It really helps to see it in writing! Thanks again Kim, and God Bless you and your family!
Chuck
Chuck, thank you for your comment here. I wish you the best as well.
My readers haven’t really been “exposed” to PPMS, because I personally have no experience with it. I’d like to provide them with a well-rounded education of all things MS. Would you be willing to share?
It sounds like you have a wonderful and supportive wife — and now you have new, supportive friends here in the Sunshine!
(Also, check out my posting: http://sunshineandmoonlight.wordpress.com/2007/12/28/one-month-free-of-hypochondria/ — it really explains all my pre-diagnosis symptoms in detail).
Welcome!
Kim
Hi Kim,
I came upon your blog via a search for Connie Francis. I have a co=worker who was recently diagnosed with MS. I am going to tell her about your site. I think you are doing a magnificent thing sharing your experiences etc which I am sure will be of great benefit to others who have spots and sparkles.
God bless and sunshine on you always,
Ken
Ken,
Thanks so much. I’m sure Ms. Francis is smiling down on us, happy to bring us together.
Lots ‘o Sunshine to you,
Kim
Thanks so much.i am from iran.send for me e_mail
hamidanvari35
Hi Kim,
I came across your blog via the Carnival Of MS Bloggers.
You may be interested to hear about a new, unique and inclusive Global Multiple Sclerosis Community providing not only up to date MS News and Stories, but a place where those affected by Multiple Sclerosis can communicate with others affected by the disease, and the wider public, by means of Online Blogs, Discussion Forums and Net-based social interaction, which the Multiple Sclerosis Resource Centre launched yesterday in collaboration with cre8Buzz.
Why not come and have a look, there are already some established MS bloggers signed up, and maybe join in, it is a great way to promote your blogs etc.
http://www.cre8buzz.com/multiple_sclerosis
squiffs ;O)
I have found, that for many, the constant talking about it ( their MS) can make it worse. Yet for so many others, talking about it, makes it feel more mainstream. Especially when they ( the ms patients) get involved with others who also have MS and each learn that they themselves are not singled-out in this zany world of ours. That they are not the only one feeling crappy on certain days and crappier yet on others.. Sorry for mu choice of wording, but how else to better explain when “WE” are not feeling well?
I developed my website and my Blog ( which is just really a place to store MS Related archives). The archives can be found after opening my homepage: http://www.msviewsandrelatednews.com and then clicking the link that reads Visit Blog. Again though, this is not the kind of blog as you have here or that of the approx 500+ other MS Bloggers whom I have recently found.
Also on my homepage, is a link to opt-in to receive “Stu’s Views and MS Related News” , a weekly MS Related e-newsletter that keeps anyone who wants to know or in the need to know, about Multiple Sclerosis. The weekly e-Newsletter has a subscription listing of over 2000 global email recipients.
I got involved in doing this so that I can forget that “I” have MS and instead only feel that I am doing it for the thousands of others that Do have MS. It’s become an almost daily, thing for me to do to help me pass the time that I now have much of, since having to stop working and “IT MAKES ME FEEL Better”, in knowing that I am helping others with MS and /or their caregivers to learn more of the disease and/or to provide “breaking” information to the Medical Healthcare industry.
So for me, reading about MS each day has neutralized me from hearing it and then feeling it, if you know what I mean.
If any of you would like to contact me, please do so.
My email address is stuartschlossman@bellsouth.net
BTW – Because I like to talk, the Nat’l MS Society and others have used me to speak at various functions and I have also peer counseled many newly diagnosed.
My Best to All….
Keep your heads held high.
Regards,
Stuart Schlossman
Kim,
I came across your blog because I have set up Google alerts for the use of “NMO”. I applaud your strength, optimism and positive attitude regarding your MS and wanted to send some positive support your way.
My daughter was diagnosed with NMO at the age of 13 – she was 11 when she had her first attack – she is now 15 and amazing!!! She is a freshman in high school and is an honor roll student in a full honors curriculum, she also sings in the choir, plays soccer for the high school JV team and is interested in all the things normal teenage girls like to do (shopping, music and just hanging out) The kicker is she is legally blind (actually much worse than 20/200) due to this crazy disease, but she has adapted so well and has such a wonderful attitude many people – including her friends and teachers – sometimes forget she has any issues at all.
I believe there must be a reason for what she has gone through – a purpose not yet known to us. She must be meant to help others in the future…for now she is just an inspiration to many who know her. You seem to have the same purpose and are already fullfilling it – I applaud you!
I was encouraged by what I have read here and I am glad I stumbled into your blog.
Stay strong and healty – all the best to you,
mb
Kim,
A beautiful site you have.. Extremely informative and I know that those who are in the need, for information, will be able to get it from you and from those that leave their comments.
Keep up the great work.
Sincere wishes,
Stuart Schlossman
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p.s. For all of us int he know, we muct continue to provide information for those who need it most.
I just wanted to let you know that I read your blog regularly and started one myself about life with MS, among other things. It’s called Messy Stuff: A Life with MS and other random ramblings.
The link is
http://messystuffalifewithms.blogspot.com/
if you’d like to check it out and it to your list of blogs.
Thanks,
Weeble Girl
Hey there Weeble Girl, I’ve added you to the blogroll — a great blog, I enjoyed it!!!
Kim, I just wanted to congratulate you on the successful end of your time at the “Q” and wish you the very best with your brand new adventure at EUP!!! You will be amazing, I just know it!!! Go Fighting Scots!!!!!
First, congratulations on your new, exciting career.
Second, when I click on the “Email Kim” link in the blogroll, I am taken to this “About Kim” page where I cannot find an email address for you. (perhaps my brain fog is flaring again).
Can you please give me your email address?
Thanx
Hi Happy, you can reach me at kimberly.fabrizio@gmail.com.
Hi Kim,
I work in public affairs at Mayo Clinic, specifically with neurology. I found your blog as I was searching for information on MS and trying to better understand the types of experiences that RR-MS patients go through. In the past couple days, I’ve read many of your posts and I have learned so much. I am very impressed by your courage and positive attitude. I look forward to continuing to follow your blog. Thank you for the valuable insight you’ve given me.
Best,
Elizabeth Rice
Elizabeth, thanks for joining us in the Sunshine and I’m glad our info here is helpful to you. You can sign up for the RSS feed at the top of the page (and new postings will come right to your inbox).
Thanks, Kim. I did subscribe to your RSS feed in my Google Reader!
Hello Kim.
I’ve just found ur web site and looked around.
I’m sorry that I couldnt understand 100% wat u wrote here
coz English is not my mother language.
Im a student who interesting in English and from korea.
I’ll try to read the rest of contents here.
I hope to keep in touch with u
Thx
I like your blog and your attitude towards MS.
I have been recently diagnosed with MS (or rather correctly diagnosed) – I was told I had CNS vasculitis for the last 13 years. Now a after a recent blackout and a fresh MRI, my new neurologist says it is MS. The symptomatic treatment for both diseases is almost the same – steroids – so I have been lucky.
I recently joined a new job and believe in remaining positive and active, no matter what!
Feedback on Sunshine and Moonlight — A Journey with Multiple Sclerosis
I visited your blog, Sunshine and Moonlight — A Journey with Multiple Sclerosis located at http://sunshineandmoonlight.wordpress.com/ recently. I must say, I’m quite impressed by the blog’s content. In particular, I really liked http://sunshineandmoonlight.wordpress.com/2008/12/31/acceptance-served-up-with-a-hefty-side-of-fear/.
Good job!
I’d like to know if you’d be interested in having me as a guest writer for your blog. I am a features writer working with MiracleFruitPlus.com. I’d like to write a free 300 to 400 word blog entry for you. I have a few years experience and would really enjoy writing one or two guest blog entries for your blog.
If you’d like to take me up on my offer, please send me a topic and a quick outline of what you’d like the article to say. Please give me as much detail as possible so I can make the blog entry meet your specifications as much as possible.
In exchange for this free blog entry, I would like to request a linkback to MiracleFruitPlus in the body of the blog entry somewhere using the title tag “miracle fruit.”
I look forward to your response
Best Regards,
Mike Burlingame
Very interesting blog! Check out mine at http://artlifenewsblog.blogspot.com and I think you’ll find some parallels.
Sincerely,
Pippit
Hi Folks!
Nice place you have here.
I was recently diagnosed with RR MS. and have been looking all over the web at different MS sites.
Out of all of them, this one contains useful information about the disease as well as tastefully selected “other” info. within.
For statistically minded folks, I am a 43 year old white male. Married, no children. Diagnosed May 2009. Treating with Copaxone as well as other non-specific medications suggested by my Neurologist.
Oops! before I forget, is there any “official” membership or sign-up here? If there is, I missed it.
Thanks,
Glenn
Sorry folks, I forgot to correct myself on my original post. If I were asked to describe this blog, I would have to say it would be “Exceptionally Impressive”
Thanks,
Glenn